i'm feelin very thankful for the events that happened lately. 11,027 is really a major breakthru for CCH. proud of all the peoples especially the singers who gave it all out to bring down the presence of God. You guys set the hall for revial. :)
Just came home after the appreciation and was worshipping and praying ... i'm very ministered by His presence. God is really good, He must be good in your life consistently. yes, but i'm not saying God is sometimes good, sometimes bad. But most of the time it's our natural mind that creates all the problem. Sometime our circumstances seem great and God becomes good. But when it turns around, we feel that God is not as good ... ha ... I'm guilty of that too. But yet the (MSG) bible says that there's no neutral ground, it's either you think God is good all the time or you think God is bad all the time. Phew, serious stuff ...
I think it really a decision to say "God, no matter happens, God is still the same, He is still good ... He still knows what we are going thru in and He is with us ... He can't wait to pour out our breakthru and blessing after we finish this test or tribulation.
We need to know how important are we to God. God treats us really v v v impt. seriously man.
The message bible writes .. "whats the price of a canary? some loose change right? (small change 10cents, 20 cents etc.)" BUT GOD cares about what happen to the canary bought with loose change more than we do care. I mean i dont really care about birds or loose change. Just today i just told the taxi driver, don't need to give me the change. BUT GOD cares about the canary that can be bought with the loose change. He will care what happens to it.
It goes on to say that God cares for us like a million canaries! Goodness. That is how important we are to God! That is how we should think of ourselves.
We are soo very precious to Him. Bearing that in mind, i pray that i will let Him reign in my life. Reigning means even in my thoughts and circumstances, no matter what happens ...
God is GOOD all the time, all the time GOD is good. :)
Been reading the book of Samuel about David … Come to think of it David really had a very cui life … have you ever placed yourself in the shoes of David?
I can imagine he’s like the typical City Harvester, who was once a gangster who smoke, took drugs and have many fights? Maybe he came to church at one point of his life. His life was radically transformed and everyone was sure that God did a great work in his life. Eventually he was on fire and passionate. Eventually he rose up and became a CGL. Grew his group within a short period of time and maybe even rose up to become a ZS? Ha. Abit far fetch la … But this guy, let’s call him Jayson. Jayson may have been a great member, great Christian, loves God and all but one day He got into a wrong relationship with a member in his zone and they did something really wrong. In the end he was asked to stepped down from his position and everyone starts to de-credit Jayson’s character, motives, attitudes etc. Even though they know that Jayson did have a genuine conversion and was heading for the better side of his life.
Sound like what David went through. He was a warrior that slew Goliath, he was a great king but ... he commited adultery and murder. At this point David had 2 choices … Listen to what people around said about him or look to God with repentance. David said in 1Samuel that he rather fall into the hands of God than the hands of man. Why? The answer is simple, because when God corrects, He does it with love but when man does it … It may unknowingly bring lots of condemnation and maybe through that Jayson may choose to turn away and just let go.
Hm, I’m really not talking about anyone I know or even myself. I learnt things and I’m thankful I learnt it because it will only help me to go through things stronger and better …
Not exactly a good time for me because of many things that happened. But things make me grow up and grow strong. I learnt that I need to please one person and that’s God. I gotta always seek to please Him because when I please God, the BIGGEST person in the entire universe, it doesn’t matter if others are pleased or not. Well I’m not say to blatantly offend people … But there are how many people in the world and there’s only one of me. I learnt I just need to seek to become “the man after God’s own heart.”:D The way I put it now is machiam I’m being misunderstood by a lot of people. Well … No la, I know where I stand and I know my stand with Him. But it’s more of something that I learn today while reading the bible that I felt it made me grow.
I really think sometimes we must not judge with what we see as much as we can … I’m guilty of judging with what I see many times, but a lot of time when we do that we may be putting our friends, members etc. on the road to the exit.
I pray that I’ll be someone with a simple heart when it comes to looking at people.
There are many things that people will do for another person if they love the person enough ...
I remember in the past there a guy who punched me because i offended his "brother".
I remember the time where a a girl slapped my friend because he cheated on the girl's best friend.
I remember a savior who died for the world even thou they rejected, despised and cursed him ...
My heart is filled with tons of gratitude towards that love that God has for us, that He sent His son for us ... I don't think i will ever be able to do something like that. that's why i'm not God la.
Today we had our SOT commissioning service, there was such a strong presence of God, there were so many people being touched by God ... There was a cry of destiny in the place.
Pst Kong and the whole senior leadership was there to pray & prophesy over the different nations represent in the school. Almost everyone was in tears ... Including myself. I cried myself silly ... I went forward when Pst said, he wants to pray for all those who feel that God is calling those who have a heart to go full-time for him. I was struggling in my heart but I went forward and the moment i stepped to the front and i heard the first word of the prophesy by Pst Derek, i started to weep uncontrollably. I don't remember what was the prophecy because during the whole time when I was there, God was just talking to me ... To make certain decisions, to heed His voice and to obey Him. All that was going thru my mind was Yes Yes Yes ...
Am i being emo? I really don't think so. I really can't imagine how to fake that la ... That's why someone ask me, if one day your senior Pst *God forbid* but what if one day your Pst falls and backslide ...
I WILL STILL FOLLOW HIM ...
He's too real for me to reject Him. OMG* it's 10.52pm. Goodness, i promised myself to sleep early because I'm kinda quite sick ... If you are reading this can you just say a lil' prayer for me now. Just a short one, coz i really need to be well before Saturday.
Goodnight!
Thoughts: Thankful ... Joyful.
we are graduating this week. :) cheer for us! :)
dear diary ...
it's been a short yet eventful 5 months ... looking back i see many things, too much i think. ha. i got to know many many many friends from all over. Some local, some overseas. I think going thru SOT really marks a chapter in my life right. it's really an experience that i can never forget.
towards the last month was the most eventful for me. i went thru the mountain top and valley low experience. not a easy task to undertake. because it's a constant battle of emotions. I think i'm growing up? ha. i began to see many things in different light about people. it's a good thing la, i think that's the whole point of God putting people in your life.
hm.. i would say that now when i am, is not the best place but i'm sure that as i keep walking, God will lead me to the right place.
Many things happened, just this week i went thru my great grandma's wake ...
A tribute to my Great-Grandma ...
I remember her as the peaceful old lady ever since i was born. I grew up staying in my gramps place and with my great grandma (LaoMa) When i was young, i always wondered, if my laoma's husband was still alive ... what do i call me? LaoBa? ha. yea.. she loved me very much. always give me bigger ang paos then the rest of the kids in the house. i was the favorite la... there was once when i was being scolded by my mum very badly and she wanted to cane me.. I ran to my lao ma and sat on her leg in order for my mum to not hit me. this is something that i always remember ... about 5 years ago she started to forget everyone in the family... everyday she'll just lie on the bed, waiting for the maid to feed her and all.. it was a sad sight. many times i will go and see her and she will give me a blank look. old age la.. i think she lived a fruitful life. ha.. i dunno how to end it.. oh well, it's my blog so.. period.
yea, coming to the end of SOT, there are so many things going thru my mind. honestly if i can i would wan SOT to be longer. i think i will really missed the times eating breakfast at the staircase with brandon, javius and more ... leading praise and worship ... seeing myself or other robert with the lyrics ... observing people KO-ing with bran, javius ... mission trips! *ups* taking "themed" picture with the 28-nians ... and much more la.. just alot of memories..
all this will be a special chapter in my life.
hopefully after SOT ends, i'll open another chapter in my life that's even more challenging and exciting ...
I'm looking onto God, the author and finisher of my faith. Please guide me through, can never do it alone, can never do it with friends ... just You God. You.
haha.. i think there are alot of people who wants to buy something for me la.. or rather i hope la.. haa..bible says that knowledge is power so buy knowing what i want, it gives you power to make me feel very loved ... so here is my wishlist la ...
1. Bible (The Message Version) not too big, not too small ... Stylo can liao ...
2. A new mouse ... (my mouse just died)
3. A new iphone casing (sujiman brand, or any white color casing la.. not too bulky type ... )
4. Ed hardy vouchers, skin voucher (ahaaha.. like i said, it's a wishlist la..)
5. Solid earphones for listening to music ..
6. T-shirts. (im a huge fan of t-shirts, i wear S usually ...)
7. Erm... $ ?? hahaha..
Will you be the genie to fulfil my wish? I think these are not totally what i want la.. because sometimes i also dunno what i want...
aiya. anyway no matter what i still love anything one la.. haa.